Embracing death and change

We die every single day. We decompose and return to the Earth. Every cell in your body plays its part and experiences being a part of you and then releases. Every molecule and mineral. This beautiful exchange of this Earth and you receiving and giving, inhaling and exhaling, living and dying.

Imagine a balloon full of water popping and the water molecules returning to all parts of the ecosystem, some in the air, on the floor, onto the people standing by. Or a star bursting and spreading across the galaxy.

Connection and interweaving relationships is the philosophy missing in modern day science. Modern day science is our version of philosophy, understanding ourselves and our world. Lack of acknowledgement of differing perspectives has resulted in a reductionist view of the human body, our experiences and ourselves.

Some may perceive this system as a prison and one we need to break free from. The matrix has you.. But what if it was part of a grander experience of the human collective consciousness? And the dis-ease currently being experienced in the mind is a warped relationship to death.

What happened when you were young?

When you first began to ask questions about death and if you were going to die, how were you told or taught about it?

Were you sat down and explained the physical nature of it, or told stories about heaven and god. Was the conversation simply changed and ignored? Parents don’t want their children to experience pain and sadness so it can be difficult. But responding with avoidance and ‘not really going there’ can create unease, fear, and an obsession with holding onto life.

Life in waves

Everything in its natural lore is in a wave formation. Waves appear to pull in and gain momentum then let go once peaking at fruition. Each wave is unique. Consciousness and water are so interwoven. Dreams of water for example are an indication for you to take notice of your conscious thoughts, subconscious and may nudge you into the unknown.

Loss is a very hard process. It needs time to be felt and evolve. It is a process that changes you forever. A part of you dies. And that part of you requires rest and self love. That part of you is returned to the Earth and not yours to hold onto anymore.

In this process you evolve. You join clubs that aren’t talked about like the miscarriage club, loss of a child club or loss of partner or parent club. And isolation from the version of you that you’ve known. Loss of other relationships can follow if they can’t evolve.

Life in cycles and flow

There are different cycles. Life cycles, yearly, seasonal, monthly, daily. Mind cycles, relationships, the list goes on. We are a combination of all cycles, all versions, all possibility, existing in a fabric of time that is the cohesion of this reality.

When we are distracted by the past or future we fall out of acknowledgement of this present experience of interweaving cycles. Within the present you access all parts of yourself. This can accelerate processing parts of you that are attempting to return to the Earth but you haven’t let it go. So it can feel overwhelming in what is called a ‘healing crisis’.

Imagine if your skin cells didn’t die. You would keep producing skin and the layers would get thicker and thicker. You’d lose fluidity, lightness and decrease communication with the outside world. Your sensitivity would fall and you’d feel like you were wearing a big suit.

You may feel more protected but you’d fall out of flow with the world. The world would perhaps feel like your enemy.

Then maybe you have a change of thought and begin to feel safe and secure in yourself. This gives your body the go-ahead to shed the layers of skin and that version of you would die. Return to the Earth. It may appear as a healing crisis but it’s not a crisis at all. It is a release. A release of a part of you that you are ready to let die.

What a gift it is to experience death. What a gift it is to experience life. And the beautiful waves in between these peaks on all levels.

If you grasp onto something out of fear of loss you’ve already lost it. If you hold on to hardship and loss of self, you aren’t living.

Balance between these experiences of life and death appears to be the parameters of this world. Two sides of the same coin. But we are in no way limited to these parameters.