Finding your Voice

It has taken me quite a long time to find my voice.

To hear my truth above all else.

It can be a very hard journey. Of biting your tongue. Of convincing yourself that your intuition isn’t accurate because someone else said this or that. A process of finding your actual truth and how to hear your intuition.

This can be even harder when you’re a woman, look younger than you are and appear nice and sweet.

People have always underestimated me because of my age, gender, appearance. It’s quite amusing to me because I have always seen the world very differently. Seeing through the illusions people create for themselves. The appearance they put forward of what they want people to see.

When you lose your voice at a young age or from a past life it can be a hard journey to find it again. But such a fulfilling one. You learn how to hear on all levels. Differentiate between the voices and influences in your head and develop a unique ability to filter through the mind. To hear the unseen. Which can certainly be more confusing when you aren’t aware of anything different from what you see with your own two eyes.

Having trust that there is something more, you begin to peel back the layers of the veil. To see colours and shapes like no other. Awakening the senses is an incredible experience. And all to hear your truth, use your voice as a weapon of an earth warrior and truly stand in your own two feet on this world. It’s incredible to remember.

Your voice will start off very soft, so as not to disturb or upset anyone.

Then your throat closes up, as though someone has their hand around it.

Keeping you quiet and silencing the light that shines in you.

You may have recurring throat infections, maybe get your tonsils removed.

Constantly being told your words aren’t worthy of being spoken.

People come into your life to put you down and in a box.

You are screaming on the inside, let me out!!!

But no-one can hear you, no-one is truly listening.

All in an effort to show you you’re not listening to yourself.

The quiet voice begins to get a little bit louder.

You experience more resistance in the form of conformity and needing to fit in.

You get threatened that the people you love will leave you.

You begin to let them go.

You begin to value your little voice that little bit more.

More people see something is changing in you and they don’t like it.

What you don’t realise it that you’re triggering the parts of them that are not voiced.

More people begin to leave.

You begin to feel this deep knowing and trust that you are supported beyond belief.

It’s a small hope but it’s enough.

You feel called to travel or study a new course.

Learning there is so much more to discover.

Underneath the uncertainty the trust grows.

Following your intuition on its journey you walk.

Your voice grows clearer as the distractions begin to fall away.

Such clarity.

How did it take me so long to get here?

Now…

I’m going to go back to my life and be myself.

But no-one else appears to have changed as I have.

Do I stay away forever?

Or do I stand up for myself and show them the real me?

You are met with resistance and attempts to keep you in a box.

You feel pressure build up around your neck again and your voice quietens.

But you are still you.

You are making it easier for them not to change and hear their own voice.

Do them the favour, gesture if you will, of owning yours and they will follow.

Do not fear change as others do.

Your voice is here to be heard.

Your voice is powerful and will impact the world.

Your voice is your legacy and your mission.